I've known my husband has had ADHD for a while now. But, I've never realized what that means to me our my family.
I just thought he was lazy.
I just thought he was mean.
I just thought I wasn't good enough.
I am now trying to come to terms with this diagnosis. I am trying to find a way to live with him again.
I've found that writing helps me cope and get through what is going on with my life. This is why I started this blog. I am going to try to keep it a secret from him. A place where I can go to get my feelings out of me and onto a screen.
After all of the pain. After all of the struggle - I'm finally at my last. He's taking his medications. He's going to counseling. We're going to counseling. But I don't know if it will last. I do not know if it will work.
I've been told by our counselor that I need to make the decision of if I will stay or leave. She will certainly understand if I do. I've been hurt a lot. But, as a good friend told me . . . I have to stay.
I have to be able to look at myself in the mirror or look my children in the face and know that I've done everything I could to make this marriage work. But this is it. I can do no more.
So, welcome to my pity party.
Please bring cake. Or gifts.
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I think having a place to write about what you are dealing with and get feedback from others who might have also gone through this is great! :)
ReplyDeleteI think will be good for you.
ReplyDeleteAnd yeah, you do have to be able to say you've done all you could at the end of the day.
This is an excellent place to vent and put your thoughts in order.
ReplyDeleteI understand exactly where you are. I'm here for you no matter what!